So here we are, less than a week before my pet and I are due to meet again. The last time we met, it was November of 2017 and the first time for both of us…well, the first time that we met one another, I’ve done this multiple times, with different partners, it was a first for her, on several levels. Granted, our dynamic has shifted a bit since then. Confused? That’s ok boo, we’re all confused in one way or another.
To paraphrase another post, “it’s been a long road, getting from there to here.” 7 months (and a couple weeks) to be exact. Lots of angst, conversations, video chats, phone chats, packages zipping back and forth through the mail, trying to keep in contact, to keep things fresh, maintain the connection and the whole ball of wax. It hasn’t been easy for either of us and the time apart has been pretty hard, I have to admit. Honestly I think it’s been harder for her, since she doesn’t have someone to come home to, to rely on, to talk to about her day when she does come home. Too, she’s moved away from what was her quasi ‘comfort zone‘, but I have commend her for making the move, since she did it for two reasons really. One, to get away from a situation that was literally driving her up the wall, and two, to be closer to me. Think about that. That’s huge.
Of course, it hasn’t been without it’s own headaches, but we’ve been trying to weather them as they arrived. Physical ailments, bouts of loneliness, a less than supportive roommate, the whole nine yards. There’s been times when she’s wanted to chuck it, and go back to where things are easier, but I’ve tried to counsel her and bring a little logic to her thinking, letting her know that even though it’s hard, she’s in it for the right reasons, and she has a goal in mind. Going backward isn’t going to accomplish it, so she needs to forge ahead. Yes, it’s a sacrifice, yes it’s going to be hard, but in the end, it’s worth it, because of the goal that she wants badly. It’s something we both want, and need to continue to work for. Ech, sorry for the sideways tangent…but it needed to be said.
Getting back to what I was originally talking about. Gearing up for the coming week. Well, there’s a lot to do before I hop in the car and drive south. And as usual, your intrepid chronciler puts it off to the last minute. Ace Procrastinator, at your service! I put in for the vacation almost a month ago, but was informed a couple of weeks ago that there might be a conflict, and the store manager had the final say in whether it was a go. I pled my case, saying that I had a very good work record, am due vacation, and there were plenty of instances where others had been allowed to go under similar circumstances, so why should I be any different? Granted, one of the department heads that intersects with my department is out on a medical disability, and someone else is covering his hours, someone that next week would be needed to cover my shift, but why should that be my problem? Going back several months ago, I was asked to push back vacation because of staffing issues and I agreed (begrundingly), and as it turned out, I could have gone when I desired and nothing would have happened. I really wasn’t interested in doing that again. Fortunately, logic won the day, and I was permitted to take the time off. So, win!
Another issue was transportation. My wife and I have just one vehicle. It’s a lease, and it’s in her name, not mine. So I have to have permission to take the car, I can’t just take it and leave her without one. Last year, I opted to rent a car to travel to my girl (then my Dominant) and it turned out to be a series of hoops, and a bit of an extravagance. Nice vehicle, did what it was supposed to and served me well, but all in all it turned out to be $800 to rent the damn thing for 5 days. This time, my wife said that it would be better if I took the car. I agree, but I’m still concerned with leaving her without transportation. This was much easier when we still had 2 cars.
Another issue. What to bring along in the toy line. So many choices! But it’s a ‘first’ meeting, so I can’t be too crazy, and besides I have to lug in (and out) all the stuff I’d bring, and be sure not to leave things behind. So probably bringing a couple floggers, a few paddles, and some equipment like carabiners, locks (and keys!) is a good idea. There will be times when she’s going to visit me here in the future, and then I can bring out the ‘big guns’. In the privacy of my own playroom. That will definitely be nice. Too, there are play parties in my area we can attend. But that’s for the future. Right now, I just want to introduce her to play without scaring the crap out of her. Certainly there’s ONE item that I don’t want to forget, and she knows what it is. It’ll be the thing I pack FIRST, because forgetting it would be unforgiveable! And I can’t disappoint her like that.
Oy, I have a lot to do before next Tuesday. And here I am writing a post….well, lucky you, because you got to read it…